I’m thinking about coming out at my work place.
There’s a few things holding me back. There’s one other guy in my department who – despite being an amazing teacher – is never going to be promoted because he has come out. People constantly see him as nothing more than what he’s come out as.
A man with diagnosed anxiety and depression.
There’s a certain stigma at my place of work about mental health – “people who have mental health issues shouldn’t teach here” is the general rule of thumb. You’ll never cope with the stress, the heart break, the distance from loved ones. As much as I wish that all the propaganda about mental health being accepted was true, it’s just not. And it probably never will be. I know that as soon as I come out as a person with Borderline Personality Disorder, I will be relegated to the realms of “fragile” and “unreliable” and “inconsistent”; despite proving myself to be otherwise over the previous year.
However, I’m going through some stuff at the moment and I really need to take time out to drive down and see my doctor more regularly. All I need is one day a month, but I feel like asking for that is too much.
And I’m worried that if I come out now, just weeks before my registration probation period ends, I wont get passed. Timing is everything – if I don’t pass this, I’m screwed.